This time last year she was merrily going along and was 7 1/2 month pregnant. Thomas Jacob was born in November and life was good. Little did she know that in January her sweet husband would find out that he had a very serious type of brain cancer. That news turned their world upside down. With a two month old son, and three little girls, the news took this brave girl of mine to her knees. How was she going to deal with this new reality? How was she going to take care of her husband, her kids and try and cope with an uncertain future? How?
I'll tell you how. I've witnessed greatness this last 8 months. I've watched her and Jake get up in the morning and get going. Sure there have been days when that was impossible and just lying in bed and wishing it all away was the best they could muster. But, the majority of the time, they've moved forward into the darkness of the unknown. I don't think anyone truly understands just what this involves unless they have actually done it themselves. This is HARD, HARD work. How to make ones mind stop going over the worse case scenarios and leave some room for HOPE. Replacing fear with hope is no easy task. Getting to the point of submitting our will to Gods is probably the hardest work we will ever do in mortality. Coming to the realization that we are NOT in charge (even if we have some control over a few things) and that we are in the hands of someone more wise, more loving and more all knowing requires a lot of faith. And Faith is what I have seen in my girl. Determination. Courage. Submission when is was required. Love. Patience. Moving forward with faith.
My mind goes to the list of the Christlike attributes found in Preach My Gospel, a missionary tool used by our church. The attributes are attributed to one who is a disciple of Christ:
Faith in Jesus Christ
Hope
Charity and Love
Virtue
Knowledge
Patience
Humility
Diligence
Obedience
These are the attributes that Jordan and Jake are developing at their tender young ages of 34 and 35. They are getting a crash course in becoming more like Christ through this terribly hard experience. Most people get to practice acquiring these attributes through a life-time of living. Jord and Jake are passing through this learning experience now in a condensed way. They have their ups and downs, but mostly they are moving forward with faith, putting their lives in the hands of He who knows all and trusting that all these experiences will be for their good. This girl of mine. She amazes me. I thank God every day that she is my little girl.









